Living It Strong

2005-12-25T13:46:00.000+08:00

As the saying goes,The paper cannot contain a fire. (haha you know what i mean)
I found a deep secret... if it was the younger me ,i would have runto my mum and spill everthing. but now, i'm hestitating. would the secret be of more harm to my mun than not letting her know abt it?

I absolutely would know how she will react to this thing-that-i-cannot-say ,cause i felt the same way too. I was hurt, and felt pity for that person-who-i can't-tell- you.Just a tinge of sadness nut it cause me sleepless night(ya, just one night)

would a kind soul please tell me?

About Red

2005-11-28T21:59:00.000+08:00

Well..
REd is an auspicious colour
Red is the IN colour... just look at stefanie's hair..
Red is hot! fiery and sexy...
So is my hair....

Want to die....

la la la

2005-11-26T11:51:00.000+08:00

Depression period over... it comes and goes unknowingly... just hope i dun da bao for my exams... but right now.. i'm not going to think abt it.. cos there's sth more exciting happening in my life... my sis wedding! not exactly happy but just exciting... hmm shall start to prepare for my wedding in six years to come... any eligible bachelors? please register! haha

2005-10-26T20:43:00.000+08:00

I wished i wished... i wished i never existed... pls make my dream come true... even if i regret in the end.. it doen't matter anymore... as i never existed...

feeling demoralised nowadays... exams coming yet i dunno how to tackle them... finished a 2000 word chinese report yet i have to redo it again... things could be easier if i just heck... but that is not me... i want to do my best...

i really want to quit schooling.... it has really make my life miserable... at the age of nineteen le... teenage years are soon over but yet i've not done sth that i'm proud to tell others... studying non stop... is that what i want to remember when i grow old? like how i mug during exams.. it's wierd

It's my life.. but i'm doing things that i'm expected to do. it's kind of tired sometimes... wished i had someone to hear me cry my heart out... but that's not me... i dun like to be weak in front of others...

perhaps.. i'm thinking too much you would say.
that's because you've never listened to me.
I'm filled with hatred.. it's scary...

Visibility

2005-10-16T18:31:00.000+08:00

I do not appear, doesn't mean i'm not present
I do not speak, doesn't mean i don't care
i do not act, doesn't mean i'm ignorant

It's just that my presence doesn't seem to matter at all...

Even an outsider saw it..
Even the weather sensed it...
why can't you?

2005-09-12T17:08:00.000+08:00

Today was a angry day! went to this cosmetics shop called NC essentials once, now Beaute Spring.. but from today onwards, i'm not going that shop anymore!!! i tried this exfoiliating thingy and realise it was quite good,, so i bought it. But who knows, after stepping out of the shop my hand starts to show signs of irritation.. so i went back for a refund or sth.. but they got the "no refund" rule, so i chose other stuff .. but the stupid shop assistant showed extreme displeasure. stoopid... they sell lousy stuff and still give me the attitude! No more of the this shop! iwant it to GO! rather patronise SaSa at jurong point. Herng!

Yeah!

2005-09-09T23:09:00.000+08:00

Haha.. start of the mid term break! hmm ... this week was rather happening for me. Had a mid autumm celebration with my course mates and Proff. so fun! we had treasure hunt and all i did was to shout "快跑!" and the rest of them kept running... haha and i kept telling others wrong direction to the clues... woohoo! and this stoopid tutor ,whom we are suppose to call him by his name, came to us and say:' waa, 5 people eat 4 plates of rice only arh?" then he walked away.. we were like "huh? what toking him?"

oh yes.. today was the presentation for my translation project. We din have notes in our hands for the presentation.. all impromptu.. but it was superb! everyone enjoyed our presentation cos we were sooo funny... and the tutor said we are good! haha so proud of myself! Well done members!

Erm.. i haven decide if i'm going for dance lesson tml... dun have the “勇气” to go back just like dat... still undecided..

Ogenki desuka?

2005-09-05T19:28:00.000+08:00

Hee... nice skin that i saw.. so kawaii right? yup.. going to have my dinner now....

Giggles..

2005-09-03T19:11:00.000+08:00

Waha! wanted to give my blog a new look..wanted to delete all my prev postings ... and wanted to announce the "new" me.... but laziness took over me and haha... nothing accomplished.

Well.. there's a list of things that i want to do:

resume my dancing lessons
improve my flexibility
join more activities

eh... think that's all... quite ambitionless.. hmm.. but you know, aries are most capable in having big dreams but not doing anything..

That's Me!

wave frantically!

2005-08-17T23:30:00.000+08:00

HaA! it has been a month since i last blog... hmm nothing exciting happened during this period other than i cut my hair, pple say i look like hong kong star and kelly poon... got praised by lecturer for a well responded message in the discussion board... er.. scored 2 points in the most difficult module during tutorial discussion(i gave the points myself) .. eh.. nothing much happened... Hmm.. but i've been busy READING! tons and tons of chinese notes! but i must say uni chinese is more chim but more exciting than in sec school and JC.. in fact i'm enjoying it.. i even have teachers from malaysia as my classmates... they look really old.. haha

I just realise i'm quite famous.. haha alot of RV pple know me when i dunno them.. and the same for NJ... my course mate says I'm impressionable... i'm taking it as a compliment... haha..

Yup... uni sux though... is tooo big for a petite gurl like me... always got lost... then juat grab someone i know to follow.. hee...

well.. that's abt it. I wonder when's the next time i'll blog..

Yup

2005-07-10T21:31:00.000+08:00

Yes! i've changed my blog music once again!! haha.. i promise it's the last time... erm... maybe the second last time.. You know where is it from??? haha it's my fave korean drama...

Watching the NKF show now... ok.. not really watching otherwise how can i blog and watch the same time.. Waiting for Fann's performance... i know alot of people dun like her but keep your comments to yourself.. i dun wanna hear it.. Oh ya.. looking forward to the performance cos is a Chinese Dance... i lurve chinese dance really.. too bad i can't dance anymore... dun wanna elaborate ..

hmm.. going to Hong kong soon.. i wanna shop till i drop.. but then.. i'll use up all my hard earn money... and stupid ming zheng ask me to join army when i failed my napfa... yah.. luff all you want.. haha..

i bought a body shop mango body scrub... add to my collection! haha.. not bad neh.. the skin becomes very radiant and i smell like a walking mango.. hmm... and i also bought a red bikini.. haha... sometimes i just need to do something crazy to feel alive...

LASTLY... my angel mei mei met a wu liao freak who keep leaving rude tags on her tag board... what can be done??? suggestions people!

ok! school starting soon and i'm still psycho-ing myself to lurve Chinese.

热辣货！！ New stuff!!

2005-06-28T17:49:00.000+08:00

Hey hey... (mimicking jacky wu) I've added a new audio song to my blog... Although someone once told me that to put music on the blog irritates the reader.. , i chose to do so because i simply lurve this song... haha and of cos credit goes to Angel mei mei who helped me with Angelfire.. Give this sugar a BIG HAND!!! (please put your hand on the PC screen!......... why are you not doing it!!!)

Crap... haha okie ... still thinkin if i want to go for orientation camp... those who know me would understand why.... i simply hate acting stupid.... haha... stupid games... blah!

dunno what to blog le.. till we meet!

PQ... the potato couch..

2005-06-27T12:12:00.000+08:00

HEy HEy! I've been watching this jap serial"Hotman 2" ... it's very nice... cos i''m acting inside!! it's really nice... about this man who's enthusiastic about almost EVERYTHING! I'm the little girl who act as his daughter... but not his daughter acherli.. i'm actually the child of his ex girlfriend with another man... kind of complicated...

Tada! my shuai shuai papa!!

okok.. that little girl really look like me when i'm small... dun believe???

LOOK LIKE RITE!!!! BETTER SAY YES!!!

haha.. just another bo liao blog..

Tick Tock...

2005-06-25T23:59:00.001+08:00

Yea... i've been thinking alot...(maybe far too much) ever since i got my blood test results... To me, it's like knowing when i'll die or sth like dat.. but actually it's not! I'm not dying..... yet. It's more like i know how i'll die... it's saddening in the sense that i can start picturing myself lying on bed... and god knows if anyone will be around by the bed.. Then again, the doc said 50%.. so there's another 50% that i wun die such pathetically... but the truth is... i wun be able to have children... i dun know if that's a good news or a bad news since i dun like kids. But people do change... who knows? It's just a gloomy vacaton for me... and i dun wish to start schooling... i have alot of things to do! i have no time to waste! I want to go for the air stewardess interview... and if i can make it.. i'll quit school... fly around... That's the fastest way to lead an exciting, memorable life... Should i go?

Hmm... I've been watching this cartoon on SCV channel 54.. It's call "new robinson crusoe" in chinese.. ya... it's a production by Nippon Animation Ltd.. in 1981. I dunno why they like to show cartoons that's producesd 24 yrs ago! But anyway... it's a very touching cartoon.. i even cried on several occasions when they decide not to bring the lambs(or goats) along to Australia.. It's was so sad...the feeling of abandon.. Sommemore, the father brought the lambs to some hills and left them there.. but the lambs always manage to come back on their own... so touching...

A highly recommended cartoon for children to learn more about love, family, and ... alot of things i guess..

i was just thinking..

2005-06-21T14:59:00.000+08:00

IF LIFE WERE TO END NOW.....

WHAT WOULD I MISS OUT?

The Guide to Home-based Facial Spa...

2005-06-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

yes... my life is so boring that i have nothing to blog.. so i've decided to share my beauty secrets with anyone who visits my blog. I think it's important that you do this spa facial at least once fortnightly.. preferably once in a week.. although i've heard experts who suggest twice a week, i think i have not time, and it may be too harsh for delicate skins. Yup.. after this facial thingy, i promise you a more radiant skin and you will feel refreshed! this should be done before you sleep such that your skin will regenerate itself during your sleeptime...

1) Cleanse your face with a suitable cleanser.

It's important to choose the right one. Tips: If you r face is oily, you lack of water/moisture. so choose one that is water-based/gel kind. If your face is dry, you lack "oil". hence you need to choose one that will be abit more oily/ cleansing milk.

2) Prepare a basin of hot water(not boiling!) and place your head above the hot water and a towel over your head to keep the steam to your face. Steam for 5 min. USE A TIMER!

3)Exfoliate with a exfoliating lotion/ marvel gel
This step is rather important as it removes dead cells and also improve blood circulation of th skin, revealing a natural glow. Rinse with warm water

4)Mask!
This is the most enjoyable step. Choose your facial mask wisely... there's alot of different variety on the shelves but i suggest that you choose reliable brands such as Nivea Visage. And yes! you must ensure that your pores are still open so that the nutrients can penetrate fully into the skin.
Follow the instructions strictly.. ( There's two kind... sheet- mask and clay mask) Sheet mask is more convenient but less effective.. and clay masque is more "nutritious")

5)Toner
After your mask..., you need to close your pores! Apply GENEROUSLY! I suggest using toner without alcohol or 100% alcohol free. Olay have a good one.. but can't find it anymore. The reason is alcohol may dry your eyes and can cause blindness..

6)Moisturise
Same thing here.. choose the correct one.. the oily kind or the less oily kind.. I recommend johnson's baby lotion and Hazeline.

7)Sleep
According to studies, regeneration takes place at 11 pm to 3 am.. So sleep before 11pm!

That's all... simple! You have to take care of your skinfrom a young age! and more intensively when you hit 20!!!
Love yourself.. because you're worth it!

Before i leave

2005-06-17T22:58:00.000+08:00

Before you wonder where i'm going, i'm just going to accompany my mum and aunties to Malaysia.. visiting fish villages... (not that i want to go..)

But anyway, i was grounded today for going out too many times in a week.. sorry guys for missing the outing. I could have come if not because i went to my sis company yesterday to "help out" . I was helping them to roll up invitation slips and tie them with string; after which, put into a bottle and then the bottle in to this cylinder with "zheng he 600th celebration" sticker. The whole invitation thingy is quite cool.. and it's my sister's idea... damn proud. I did until 9.30 plus cos i tot my sis will come and fetch me after meeting her client at nus.. but nvm.. although i miss my dinner... but "ka-ching" came in!

Come to think of it, i've been part of various interesting jobs/events:

I know the malay girl in this pic! she 's the customer officer at robinson CPF

And under Grid Design...
i worked for Singtel events: Disney on Ice, Movies under the stars.

i got yummy lunch buffet for this!

Yep... interesting holiday jobs.. envious?